- Embodiment of Uncertainty: Ainchase Ishmael...
- Ain: .......
- Embodiment of Uncertainty: It isn't too late. You can turn back. Throw away all your impurities you have gained through your contact with Henir and come to me. You still have a mission to do in my stead.
- Hernia: Ain...?
- Ain: ... Goddess Ishmael. I apologize that my uncertainties have lead you to appear in this manner.
- Embodiment of Uncertainty: You have gone against my will... Yet, you wish to return my power to Elrios. Hypocrisy is a human trait. You are an angel. The more you accept their trait, the further you will stray away. Yet, you will never be fully human. Something in-between an angel and a human... Do you truly wish to embody 'Chaos' itself?
- Ain: I did think it might be better to just chase my mission as before, whenever my fear of change became too much. Looking back, escaping to my past wouldn't have been a concept my past self would have understood either. A choice that was available to me because I learned from humans... If that's the result of my choice... Then I will gladly accept the consequences. Goddess Ishmael... No, the embodiment of my uncertainties... I will not become Chaos. I am much too aware of myself to become a part of Chaos after all. I am the Agend of God, with a mission from the Goddess, and one who have now sworn to protect the Goddess in Elria's name. One who will endlessly transform beside them and guard them... I am Ainchase Ishmael.
- Hernia: Are you awake?
- Ain: ... El Lady...... No, may I call you Ms. Hernia? Thank you for your help. I would not have been able to wake up on my own.
- Hernia: No, I'm sure you would have woken up eventually without my help. I just helped you get up faster.
- Ain: How do you know? You... Ah well, I guess I did reveal a lot about myself.... Ms. Hernia. I did know logically, that my uncertainties were uncalled for, and that my future was not set in stone. You told me these feelings were to be expected. Looking back, I became unsure ever since I have faced Chaos. Observing human's behavior, judging, feeling uneasy... All that stemmed from Henir, but is now a part of my emotion. I thought I would be fine as long as I was certain of myself... But in the end, I was shaken to the core. If I have to feel this 'expected feeling' again and again, I may be swallowed up one day. If that happens... What will be next?
- Hernia: You are constantly evolving. You are different from when we last met. The fact that you've managed to maintain your form, despite losing consciousness instead of dissolving into El energy, is proof in and of itself.
- Ain: ...!
- Hernia: Sometimes... I think it might have been better if I became one with the El to stabilize it. But... There were those who told me to stay alive. Not only Fenriart... but Master Ventus, Master Denif, the Priestesses of this time... Everyone... Because they asked I do not sacrifice myself... I can still live today as 'Hernia'. Now, I try to do my part as the 'El Lady' and as 'Hernia'. Ain, I have chosen to walk the path as the El Lady. I have accepted the sacrifice that comes with it. But now, I decided to continue on as Hernia. That may be going back on my word. It is certainly a change. This change didn't just happen on my own. I was able to change because many people talked to me. And some change happens drastically, before you even notice. Ain, are you still afraid of change?
- Ain: ....... If I say no, I'd be lying... But if this change is due to their influence, I suppose it's alright. I may become unstable again... But yes, as long as I remember what you told me, I think I would be alright.
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Hernia's Memory
